A letter for you

Ok here it goes....

You think that i moved on easily?

Guess again..You are wrong...You dont know anything about me..How i maybe reacting to all this that had happen between you and me..Yeah i may seem to be happy and all..But when every night turning to morning..i have to go through a period of time that my heart will hurt and memories will flash down upon me the moment before i will be able to go to sleep..and maybe you will experienced the same thing right..And if you notice that all my fb post are not that happy compared to you aite..

You are better without me??

Who? Me? Are you sure? i think the one that is better is you ..You want to know why..Cause you are the one that told me that you can't handle the relationship and the commitments that you put in all..I guess its just me that is a extra..I had nightmares..i do my exams with a broken hearts..

You thought that i never love you fully??

Are you sure? You think my love is a lie to you before? Maybe if you want to believe what your ex had told you about me..Go and believe..I have my reasons for what i maybe doing..If you think that i was lying to you all this while..Then its up to you to decide..Why did i ever shed my tears when we are apart?

And tell me..Why do i even take the time to fetch you from work..fetch you when you are with your mum and all..i can simply just say that i'm busy but i wanted to spent time with you even if your mum is there..I maybe your cauzin and i maybe your ex but the truth will be understand when you don't understand and ask me in the first place..Even if i don't tell,i know you asked..If you want to call me a liar..do call me..if you want to call a cheater..do call me..When there is a reasons for all that you did...

If you hope that it will not breaks any tier between family, then i cant promise you that..

I may have plan many things to do with you but i guess that all is just a hopeless little memories...All that has been swipe out by just one disaster..

All the best..

From your cousin....